Discovery upon discovery

Its so OK to leave the handbags and shoes out of the bigger picture

I find myself blogging on the phone,again. Something deep setting at the wee hours of another Monday,that i just have to surface through my fingers on to the keypads,and out to the world. The mind is throbbing at the moment but it’ll be fine. Just gotta let this out first.

“Ive a bigger picture to life more than handbags,shoes and labels and definitely glad that i am. I am eyeing for idols which will lead me,my family n d rest of us muslimin and muslimat here to jannah. Many Muslimat icons which have been there but never looked at. Most time often we say but dont do. We brag,but thats it. I have that bigger picture in mind and will keep telling myself to stop kidding around as time is short. May Allah be with me ,my family and d rest of us insyaAllah.”-missjewelz-

I wrote the above in my Facebook status a couple of minutes ago. It pretty much sums up the value and identity which has struggled frantically in its quest to settle a place in my heart. What I can say is, as a Muslim many a times one faces an identity crisis. When another identity is used dominantly over a true Muslim identity,the result will show.

The Bob Marley identity,reggae ragga wanna be,56 as the number to be associated with and acknowledging the chants and Lord related praises in Mr Robert Nesta Marley’s song. All is fine. Was a proud Marley and reggae fan to the extent it became an identity. Uhm..

The realization

I read a friend’s wall today. It said ‘you cannot teach a man anything. You can only help him discover it within himself’. I kind of agree with this one. Feed me ( or anyone for that matter), and whether miracles happen or not after that is entirely up to you. In this case, that miracle is change. Change can be somewhat confrontational,especially when its related to something holding a personal and intimate value to us.

What hit me in the head when i was expecting my daughter last year was that ,I seriously have to start conscious and proactive control in my life. I have a guide called Islam and i know its my safe haven and guarantee. Its tricky from hear on if you dont truly feel or understand the essence of being a Muslim. I am responsible and accountable for each of my action;what ive done before,now and after. What i do now will have its consequence later on. Whether I get rewarded for my good deeds,or sin for the vices i couldnt receive.

The child that i was carrying is my responsibility too. Every single thing that i do will determine the outcome of this child. I certainly want the best of her and firmly believe that i can achieve this by being the best of myself in accordance to the Islamic teaching and values. My religion’s teaching has it all. What is needed right now is that patience to find and understand it so that i can let it desolve in me.

Keep calm and forgive

Im my religion we believe that a man shouldn’t be ultimately judged for his wrongs and sins,but rather his repentance and change ( for the better). There is a beautiful verse in the holy Quran al Furqan which reads “The recompense of evil is punishment like it. But whoever forgives (an evil committed against himself) and amends (matters), his reward is with Allah. . . . Whoever is patient and forgives, that is a matter of great resolution.” (42:40, 43). The take away from this verse are 1) Al- Ghaffar, The Forgiving is one of Allah’s attribute. He Forgives. And we should always seek for His Forgiveness no matter how chronically and malignantly sinful we think we have become. We should learn to forgive ourselves too,pray to our Creator and seek our way out.

Aint no mountain high enough

In Islam,we also believe that Allah knows His subjects and servants best and that He will never test them beyond their capability . From the second chapter of the Quran ” Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear…” (Qur’an, 2:286). Its so clear and amazing how the verses of Quran are made to guide mankind. What is holding me back now knowing that there’s hope,chance and mercy from Allah ? Should i be connecting with Him in order for me to become a better person and not lose hope? Thats a big Yes for me. This is what i believe in and i will make that change. Even if slow,but surely InsyaAllah.

In a nutshell, there is always a way out,there is always room for change and improvement in our lives as long as we truly believe in making that change Sincerely.

I will leave you to absorb my jottings and thoughts ,and hopefully whatever good will reach you God  wills. Amen!